Thoughts of a 20-something

Leave a comment

My Man Shaun T

In between challenge groups I’ve been doing Shaun week. Today was ripsanity, a greuling 45 minutes of weights and torture. I loved it. I feel great after. I do realize that I’m super used to my 30 minutes of working out and definitely prefer that. But Shaun T said something during our workout today that I really needed to hear.

“If you feel good on the inside, the outside will follow”

I really needed to hear this. It reminded me that even though the number on the scale isn’t moving as fast as I want it to, I’m feeling amazing. I know I’m stronger, I’m happier and more confident. I might not look like I’ve changed much on the outside, yet, but that’s coming. I need to focus on how I feel on the inside.

So thank you Shaun T. Not just for the killer workout, but for reminding me to focus on what matters.


Leave a comment

Dangit Summer

Summer is tough. The loss of my normal schedule makes sticking to a meal plan hard if not impossible. It’s one of the only times that I get to see most of my friends and many of my extended family. As much as I love everyone, the easiest and often the most chosen option is to go out to eat. Which is great…. no one has to cook or clean up, everyone can have whatever they want, and good times are had by all… except my waist line.

Normally, I gain a few pounds over the summer. Normally, I eat like crap, drink a bunch and don’t workout to offset any of it.

This year? This year I haven’t gained. I haven’t really lost- only 3 lbs- but I haven’t gained! I have been more mindful of what I’m eating, choosing water over alcohol (usually), and am working out daily. I haven’t missed a workout in over a month! I feel great. I’ve lost a few inches, but mainly my feelings have improved. I have more strength, more energy, and more happiness when I’m working out. It’s a win-win.

The one thing I really need to do is get my nutrition under control. July was an insane month- Brother and Uncle came to visit, quick trip to visit family in VA, and lots of time at the pool/with family. It’s been wonderful, but it’s been tough to stick to a plan.

August is going to be insane too (seriously, we created a family calendar for me, my sister and my mom and the entire month is grayed out.) Between birthdays, more visits and an irregular schedule, I’m not super hopeful for being able to get my nutrition under control. But I do have confidence that I will be able to make better choices and say “no” when it comes to things like alcohol (minus my date night for hubby’s birthday.).

And even if this month doesn’t work out, I know that come September and back to my “normal” schedule, I can totally do it. I CAN get up at 4:45 to work out every day (ugh), and I CAN make better choices. so I will.

Leave a comment

Week 2 – 21 day fix meal round up

I have been meal prepping this entire school year. Otherwise I don’t bring a lunch to work and if I don’t bring a lunch I go out and then I spend money and I’m not okay with that. I have a scattered system of meal prepping right now and I’m going to try and condense everything into one place. This week’s menu:

Shake with banana, berries and almond milk (1 red, 2 purple)

Steak salads (2 green, 1 red, 1 blue, 1/2 orange)
Stuffed Pepper (1 red, 1 green, 1 blue, 1 tsp)

Philly Cheesesteak stuffed peppers (per pepper: 1 red, 1 blue, 1 green)
Chicken fried rice (1 red, 1 green, 1 yellow, 1 tsp)
Salmon with couscous and veggies (1 red, 1 yellow, 1 green, 1 tsp)

Almonds (1 blue)
Cucumbers/Carrots with Hummus (1 green, 1 blue)
Greek Yogurt with berries and granola (1 red, 1 purple, 1 yellow)

This week also includes a happy hour on Wednesday, Father’s day (and leftover steak) and dinner at my parents. Sunday we are having friends over and grilling (I’ll [try to] opt for a grilled portobella mushroom, corn, pineapple and chopped caprese salad over the pulled pork sandwich). I’ll have to plan accordingly for breakfast and lunch that day.

Next week we are going to Virginia to visit family, so the diet and workouts will take a short pause during that time. Still, I’ll be trying to choose healthier options and refraining from alcohol, or at least making better choices with alcohol.

Wish me luck.

Leave a comment

Post baby ass kicking time

I was looking back through my old posts and realized I’ve been here before. Scale close to 200 pounds, general unhappiness but stressed/busy to the point of daily exhaustion. The past few days, I’ve fallen asleep on the couch while my child took her afternoon nap. I’m sure that some of this has to do with my weight. Classified as “obese” by the BMI calculator (which I know is outdated, but still).

Before my daughter was born I was 20 pounds lighter. I was happier with myself. I was certainly healthier. This is my journey back there and I’m hoping that it will take this summer.

1st Goal: be back to my pre-baby weight (175ish, so goal is 175) by the end of the summer.

2nd Goal: 160 by Christmas

and from there we’ll see. I started doing the 21 day fix last Monday and am already down 5 pounds. The workouts aren’t the issue, it’s definitely food, treats and alcohol. I have a hard time making the healthiest option when we’re out to eat and forcing myself to choose health over taste. I need to dial into my nutrition and hold myself accountable. I’m hoping that signing up for BeachBody on Demand will help me reach these goals. I know that my husband is supporting me and right there to help me when I need him, and I know that I need to get my health in check to be here for my daughter in the long term.


Here we go!

Leave a comment

Here’s to the working mom 

Here’s to the working mom. You know… the ones who CHOOSE to work. Not just because they need the money but because they need the job.

To the mom who knows she’s a better person for having her job…

To the mom who knows that the daycare she’s chosen was the right choice….

To the mom who feels guilt for leaving their child…but knows it will be okay…

To the mom who is a role model to women everywhere…

To the mom who spends her lunch away from coworkers because she’s pumping for her child….

To the mom who rushes out of work daily to pick up her children so she doesn’t miss another minute….

To the mom who misses all the SAHM playdates because they’re midday on a Tuesday…

To the mom who skips the gym because it means more time away from her child….

To the mom with a messy bun, bags under her eyes and a slightly “off”outfit because you were just too tired to pull it together after a long night of fussing…

To the mom who never hesitates to take a sick day for her child but shows up and pushes through when she herself is sick…

To the mom who worries about missing all the firsts and giving those special moments to someone else…

I see you. I’m proud of you.

I am you.

Here’s to you. Here’s to the sacrifices you make and the strength you show. You are amazing. You’re making the right choice for your family.

Leave a comment

Eleven months down…

Never have I had eleven months go so fast. From the first smile to the first laugh to the first roll over to the first time crawling and now she’s walking with support…. every  moment has been absolutely amazing. I’m baffled at the fact that this amazing human that I created is nearly a year old.

There have been hard times. Breastfeeding got easier, but when going back to work and adding in pumping I found different obstacles to overcome. Still, I’m proud to say that my daughter never had formula and has been happily nursing for her entire life. We are in the process of weaning to whole milk and I am happy that she is doing well.

Being a working mom is one of the most conflicted things I’ve ever done. While I LOVE my job and LOVE teaching, it is a struggle every day to get up and leave my daughter. I rush out of work as soon as I can and go pick her up, as if I can make up for missing a huge chunk of her day. My little girl won’t nap much at day care, so when we get home, she falls right to sleep. While it’s nice to get a couple of things done after work, it means that my time with her during the week is limited to morning nursing, dinner, and bedtime. If you add it up, I spend 12 active hours with my daughter total Monday-Friday.

I’ll post a better update soon, and a post dedicated to the working mom, I just had to get a little note out there.

Leave a comment

The days are long…

It’s true what they say. Time flies. I can’t believe my baby girl is already a month old. Where did this time go? How have 4 of my 6 weeks of maternity leave gone by??

I’m so thankful. I’m thankful that my baby is healthy and happy. I’m thankful that my husband is so supportive and helpful. I’m thankful that my family is nearby and is getting to know the newest member of the family. I can’t count all of my blessings, but I have never been happier.

I have a hard time looking forward. Thinking about going back to work makes me panic. I don’t want to miss a single second of my daughter’s life.

I really wish that being a stay at home mom was in the cards. I know that in today’s day and age, more and more women need to stay at work because of money. It upsets me that that’s what life boils down to, and unfortunately that’s a major consideration for my husband and I. But ugh, I wish I could stay at home, even if it were just for a year.

But back to happiness. I have the most perfect wonderful baby in the entire world. I almost dread her growing up and becoming a teenager and hating us. I love her. I love my perfect family.